you always end up just where you need to be

i feel that this is completely true. at least i tell myself that it's true when i think about how scared i am of the future. 

i went to a meeting the other day that scared me to death about the future. i dont have a plan and apparently i need at least three. and if my first plan doesnt work out i will only have hours to put the following two into action. i cant even believe it.  it freaks. me. out. 

i am hoping that i will figure it all out in six months because that is all the time i have. definitely NOT enough! here is my main goal: move back to texas and hopefully be able to live with my friend molly. we have had this planned for a long time (since thanksgiving i think?) and now i am very afraid that it wont happen. all i can do is try my hardest, and that is what i will do.

i took this polaroid a few weeks ago (yes, i finally took out my polaroid camera!) and love it sooo very much! i was very excited to find this beautiful fence when i was driving to study one day. i cant wait to have a fence of my own so that i can leave something just as beautiful to be inspirational to others.

i feel like i smile most of my day, but it makes me feel much better when i come home freaked/stressed out about the things i need to figure out and see it hanging above my bed. it's so true. everything is lovely. smile more.

and with that, i will leave you with my favorite buddha quote:

"when you realize how perfect everything is you will tilt you head back and laugh at the sky."

love.